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persona 4: souji seta

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WHO: Souji and youuuuuuuuuuu
WHERE: Apprassage
WHEN: 05/15 - 05/19
WHAT: Souji can now set things on fire. You're on fire, he's on fire, everything's on fire. It's great.

WARNINGS: Fire??
ONE

Souji hasn't been feeling easy since the night of the prom. It wasn't the prom itself that got him feeling so disembodied with himself (in fact, he had a great time being crowned Prom Princess and all) but rather, it was something else entirely. It was this feeling of "something" residing within him, as if he suddenly wasn't just Souji Narukami anymore but instead, Souji and who knows what.

Obviously, he hasn't spoken a word about this to anyone. Why would he? No need to bring on unnecessary concern and besides, this is something he should handle on his own. It can just be another one of his secrets, just like the strange voices in his head and the floating cards that he sees...

As a result, Souji has been trying to be as secretive as possible about his newfound powers. Well, as secretive as you can be with another being living in your soul, but you know, you make do. You make do by going to a semi-secluded area behind a few building and try to figure out how to summon said new monster. It's honestly just as hard as it sounds.

The first few times, almost nothing happens at all. A card engulfed in blue fire appears, Souji crushes it, there's a brief half second of an oversized monster, it disappears, rinse and repeat. Thanks to a certain memory, there is a faint sense of familiarity with the summoning process, but it doesn't suddenly endow him with the experience or knowledge that he needs to continue. All he can do right now is to practise with what he knows and that is to just summon the damn thing.

Sure would be a shame if someone walked around that corner and saw Mr Blue and Flaming Demon...

TWO

... or it'd be a greater shame if someone turned that corner at the wrong time and accidentally got hit by a spell.

Over the next few days, Souji has been diligently practising with summoning Mada, slowly learning the type of skills it possessed and how to direct it to use said skills. It certainly isn't an easy task, quickly draining Souji out and having him nearly pass out a few times. One doesn't simply become a Persona master in just a couple of days and for someone as inexperienced as him, there's bound to be some accidents.

Accidents involve fire or silencing spells.

Don't worry, the fire might just barely miss you or just catch a tiny bit of your clothes so don't worry about any serious injuries, but that silencing spell... don't worry, it'd probably wear off.

... eventually.

THREE

Remember how Souji nearly passed out from draining himself of all energy with this whole Persona nonsense? Well, it just about happened now.

Souji at least had the common sense to try and sit up against the wall right before he just suddenly dropped dead from exhaustion, but he slumps over to the side, actually kind of looking like a murder victim. It's quite terrifying, really, but hey, if you're looking for an opportunity to take his wallet then now is a good time.

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[ The time has come.

For two days Yu has known about his ... god, what is it? His ... summon? This presence in his soul? He still doesn't have a word for it. He just knows he has it, that it's alive within him, that he's told friends and family and even practiced with this creature a little...

... and he still hasn't told Souji.

He can't even explain to himself why. All his excuses of not wanting to alarm Souji were ... the truth, but only a grain of it. Mostly a lie. Some wall had sprung up within him, some desire to avoid his brother and keep his own secrets like he's slowly come to discover Souji has been doing to him.

Would he tell me, if he could do this?

And maybe, just maybe, he was scared. Scared of not doing it right, scared of losing control, and where would he be if he hurt his brother?

Two days on, with some practice, Yu is confident enough that if he tries to summon again he won't hurt Souji. But, more than anything... he knows he can't keep this a secret. He shouldn't keep this a secret. Yosuke thinking something was wrong when he admitted he hadn't told Souji was indication enough.

You're not supposed to keep secrets from your twin brother, right?

So Yu goes to find him. More than anyone else in this colony he can probably find Souji even when Souji doesn't want to be found. They're brothers, twins, closer to each other than to anyone else in this world. Yu knows his brother. And, more than that, he knows where he himself would go if he needed seclusion. If Souji does in fact also have this power... he'd hide and try to figure it out, just like Yu had, wouldn't he?

And that's how Yu discovers his twin hidden behind buildings, nowhere anyone would normally think to look.

That's how Yu sees the monster. The thing. The thing that now lives in both their souls. ]

You can...

[ He murmurs, unthinking, and then sighs through his nose and slowly comes closer. ]

... you can do it too. Souji.

[ That's a hell of a loaded statement. ]

Edited (noticing typos belatedly is the worst) 2017-05-20 18:09 (UTC)

[ When Souji first found out that he had this... thing inside him, the first thought that ran through his mind was how does he hide this from Yu? ]

[ The Social Links, those voices in his head, he couldn't avoid that. He had to tell Yu about them. After all, he was right there and there was no way that Souji couldn't deflect away from the topic after zoning out like that, but if he had the chance? The chance to pretend that it never happened and that he never had to tell Yu? He just might have kept it to himself the entire time. ]

[ He's not doing this out of some malicious intent. No, in fact, it's really just the opposite. He can't tell Yu because if he does, that means that he's admitting to some sort of weakness, that he's dealing with these problems that he can barely handle himself, and that he has to worry his brother about them. It's been happening since they were little, when Souji would feel these strong moments of isolation and pain that he would pick up the phone to call Yu but then put it right back down. Yu probably has his own problems and he's supposed to be the older brother, right? Even if it's only by a few minutes, isn't he suppose to put on a strong face and pretend that he's all right? ]

[ "Be strong for your brother, Souji. You don't want him to feel sad too, right?" ]

[ And so, Souji has been hiding things away from Yu since the divorce. He feels guilty whenever he thinks about it, but it's become a habit now, something that he doesn't even realize he's doing half the time. If he's struggling with something small then maybe he'll confide in Yu for a moment, but for something this big? Of course not. Not for a while, at least. After all, what is he suppose to say? Help, he's got some kind of monster living in his soul now? That he thinks he might be going crazy? Of course not. He can't do that. Not when he doesn't even know how to control it and if it'll hurt anyone. ]

[ But it seems like it doesn't matter now when he's caught red-handed by Yu, walking towards him. The first expression that Souji shows is shock and surprise, but it quickly dissolves into guilt. Guilt as in he was just caught with his hand in the cookie jar like when they were younger, but it disappears when he forces to hide it behind a blank face. ]

Yu...

[ He turns to him, just arms at his side. ]

When did you...?

[ Get here? Get "it"? He leaves it wide-ended for Yu.]

Two days ago.

[ Mild, mild as anything, but he doesn't stop until he stands before Souji. His twin, his equal. Aren't they the same? But the people who know them best always start to realize just how different they actually are. He's not sure how he should feel about that. Brighter, happier, warmer Souji... who, he knows well, shuts himself away from the world far more and far better than Yu himself could ever be capable of.

Isn't it his fault? That Souji holds back so much, hides so much? If their places had been switched, if he'd just been a better brother to Souji growing up, maybe Souji would actually rely on him now. Trust him. Not keep so many secrets from him. Maybe the wall between them that he feels is his own fault, for the luck of living with their father, for the coincidence of stability that his life just happened to have. Maybe if he'd been better at expressing his own emotions, Souji would have shared his, too.

This is why he had to do this. Why he had to tell Souji, why he couldn't keep this secret. He knows it's awful to want to keep it hidden from his twin. He knows it's his own problem. It's always his own problem. It's his fault, after all--

that he feels this way.

Yu's expression is very, very neutral, not unlike Souji's own. But Souji will know his silences as well as Yu knows Souji's, and he'll be able to see that Yu is holding himself back.

By way of further explanation he holds out a hand, and the glowing blue tarot card will appear above it. Steadier than it was two days ago. He won't crush it, instead just letting it fade away again. ]

... when did you?

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Two. Sorry to add to the flood but....

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