recolle | (Semi Closed) Bingo time!

[What a dumb square.

Who would want to sing that song? Of course he knows the words anyone that is on the internet would know it. If they didn't they must be living under a rock still trying to find someone to go "caroling" to with it, seems like it could be a good or bad ending. Then he thinks of the person that tried to tease him and the idea is too good to be true.

Sending a message he asks for Magilou's address, just for a visit of course.]

[Magilou is somewhat surprised at the offer, and also a bit skeptical. Nonetheless she complies, and the visit is arranged. Little does Magilou know what she is getting into here, nor how this is all going to end.

Which, with her track record, is probably not well.

So when Ritsu arrives and she opens the door, he is greeted by a small, blonde woman. In a labcoat. The rest of her outfit is entirely casual except for the labcoat which she really has no reason to be wearing. Nonetheless, she doesn't see it as anything odd, and in fact greets Ritsu with a friendly smile. Might as well be polite with her guests.]

"Come on in!" [She offers, inviting him to the hellhole of clutter and laziness that is her apartment.]

[The fact she was so okay with giving her address Ritsu is kind of glad this won't be too hard, thankfully. Arriving at her apartment when she opens th door, he is surprised someone could live here...Well then again there have been worse. Also was she doing science of some kind? Who knew? Still she will be his first victim before he enlists her help to go caroling with him.

Standing on the doorstep he smiles and waves his hand.]

Sure, but one minute I have something to say.

"Go ahead." [And hey Ritsu, sometimes a girl just wants to wear a labcoat. She just felt in the mood for it, and so she did it. Right now she was just sweltering in the summer heat and dying a very sweaty death. Well, she felt like she was dying anyways.

But Maggie has no idea what he called her about, nor what this was for, but she was certainly interested, if also skeptical. She only gave him her address because he didn't seem like a serial killer and this would give her something to do, nothing much. There is something of a small smirk on her face, because she really isn't sure what to expect and the surprise factor is giving her a bit of excitement.]

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[They can but the sun is a horrible thing...Still if she wants to wear one she can go right ahead to wearing one. For now Ritsu looks at her and then takes a breath. This was still kind of embarrassing but it should be fun at the same time for sure.]

"We're no strangers to love
You know the rules and so do I
A full commitment's what I'm thinking of
You wouldn't get this from any other guy"

[Luckily he has a really nice voice...like really nice. He just doesn't even use it.]

[There's a sort of silence that awkwardly comes over her. She catches herself staring even harder now, mainly out of some level of confusion. But that was replaced with a sort of idle amusement, as she leaned against the wall on her arm. Hey, she had gotten what she wanted. Entertainment. In the form of Rick Astley performances, which he was presumably doing because of Retrospec and that one bingo space.

Still, she doesn't interrupt him. She just lets him keep going there, for her own amusement. So you're on your own here Ritsu.]

[She is enjoying to way to much...that is pretty annoying. Still he's here so he might as well finish the song. Caroling is exhausting.]

"I just want to tell you how I'm feeling
Gotta make you understand
Never gonna give you up, never gonna let you down
Never gonna run around and desert you
Never gonna make you cry, never gonna say goodbye
Never gonna tell a lie and hurt you"

[Please is this enough of this?]

[And no small part of her enjoyment is his suffering. After all, that's clearly what half these bingo prompts are for and this one is no exception. Of course, Maggie had lost her ability to feel humiliation for many things long ago. There were still some that could get to her, she still had some pride, but those definitely weren't coming out of her mouth anytime soon. Still, as he went on, the joke did begin to lose some of its potency. You could only watch a person do something like this for so long until it got old, and so she piped up finally, for Ritsu's sake.]

"I think you can stop now."

[It was going to get sad if he sang all of it himself...so please don't make him. He is kind of glad when she stops him. At least the singing was kind of fun itself? He wouldn't mind singing other things...at some point. Still he lets out a sigh and nods.]

Okay...I guess that should work. Let me in.

[She steps aside, and the horrors only partially visible are now there in full view. Mainly, the piles and piles of clutter everywhere, objects seemingly haphazardly placed all around. There was nothing remotely orderly about its layout, yet to Maggie, it was organized. She perfectly navigated her way over to the (oddly clean) couch without much trouble, and in fact, she knew where almost everything was. Well, besides objects she easily misplaced. Like keys. Fuck keys.]

"Well, this is my place. Underwhelming, I know."

[Inside he can see everything completely and it is a huge mess. How is she living in a room like this? Is it true that people like this are smart? He read somewhere that geniuses are messy, but that might be weird to imagine.]

...it's kind of overwhelming...

"Well, it's not once you get used to the mess." [Actually, Maggie's messiness was more due to just her being someone who didn't much care about the appearance of her surroundings. She knew it looked terrible, but she could decently navigate through it and it wasn't so messy as to be dysfunctional. So it was liveable, and so she wasn't going to make an effort to deal with it until t became too much of a problem. So really, it was emblematic of how she lived her entire life.]

"Anyways, you going to sit down?" [She pointed to the spot next to her on the couch.]

That can be said about a lot of things. [Ritsu would be able to understand that, a organized mess in a way. Still he moves to sit down next to her and looks around the room. He was meeting a lot of people lately.]

Thank you. Did you finally get to sleep?

"Yes. I did." [Not enough, granted, but it was more than she had before. So, an improvement over "I'm almost literally dead". She is tired still and that's why she is spending the day around the house. She has a show tomorrow and therefore she is taking this opportunity to be lazy as fuck.]

[Lazy was a nice thing to get to do. At least she doesn't look like she's dying right now. Ritsu leans his head back on the couch and yawns into his hand.] That's good...so are you playing bingo too?

"Yep. I might as well play along. Even if this game may lead to our doom." [Because hey, why else would Retrospec give them weird bingo cards? Although, it was distinctly possible they were benign, in fact, that was more likely, but nonetheless she would keep the possibility on the table for her.]

It really might but it would be nice to know if this memory stuff is real? [It would be strange if something weird didn't happen with all of this.] Some of the fills are out there.

"If it is... if we can't believe or memories, can't believe ourselves then our lives will fall apart. Whether we say it or not, we've all been acting under the assumption that our memories and feelings are real. We have to. Or else, then what can we trust is real? How can we stop ourselves from falling into nihilistic despair? Even if I'm skeptical of am this... my heart, I suppose, believes that it is real. That the memories are real. And that's how I have to operate, to preserve my sanity." [She stared off in silence for a while, and then sighed.]

"I really shouldn't be rambling like that, should I?"

[Ritsu looks at her, she really has some feelings about this. Honestly, he doesn't blame her...he went without friends most of his life and even the small thing like someone having a nickname in his memory was new. If it is real then where does that leave them.]

...You wonder what happens if we learn everything?

"Yes. Or rather, where does the line end? When do we stop being us, and start being them? It's a fascinating philosophical concept, if also a somewhat terrifying one." [And philosophy was always a thing she relished in the chance to talk about to a willing audience.]

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...So you think we could lose our current selves completely? What if they are the real us...or vice versa? [It was interesting to think about.]

"Exactly. That's what has been plaguing me about this. How can we be sure that we are the realist versions of us? That is how we act, and if we don't act that way... then we don't act at all. It is truly an interesting predicament, and perhaps the one that people are least thinking about." [She's smiling, and she seems relaxed, yet that couldn't be further from the truth. This line of thought is... something to her, and she knew that the further she thought on it, the more that feeling would increase. Something was off about all of this, things weren't lining up, and there was something she knew that she was missing about all this.]

[It was a pretty scary thought to lose yourself...the self you've known your whole life. It makes it like you were always living some kind of lie.]

What would you do?

"...What can you do? If you're slowly losing yourself without any control, you can't fight it. You just have to slowly watch it happen. And you know, you might not even realize it. It could be a slow process of change, or you might just one day wake up as another person. It is unnatural, it is terrifying, and Retrospec is to blame." [This time, there was no veneer of casualness. She clearly was anxious about this, and the concept alone brought upon her a sense of helplessness that was utterly paralyzing. But of course, after her mask slipped for a bit, it came back with a small chuckle.]

"Of course, that's assuming that these memories have the caps ability to change us like that."

Saying it that way really does sound like it's a slow brainwashing?

[Even as calm as Ritsu was he could see he was getting worried about this...but more about her she seems to be hiding some of her feelings on this matter.]

Guess so...but there really is no telling?

Magilou - Caroling

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