recolle | ( CLOSED ) | How can I answer my heart?

( CLOSED ) | How can I answer my heart?

WHO: Mio Sonozaki & Leon Zhong
WHERE: Starting at Leon's apartment then a fancy hotel!
WHEN: 2/15
WHAT: Late Valentines Day date that starts off with pain
WARNINGS: Mentions of suicide. I'll edit in case anything else pops up!

[ They had twenty four hours for themselves. Admittedly, Leon was surprised when they were granted this day. It did kind of (actually majorly) frustrate him that they were stuck in the pits of hell for Valentines Day, but he made certain to make it up to his girlfriend. She deserved that much because he loved her and she's been through so much.

As much as he wanted to take her out starting early in the morning, he figured they both needed some time to do their own things. Leon spent the beginning of the day restocking on supplies and checking up on Jasmine. Being away from his dog princess was heartbreaking but he fully trusted her in the care of Sakura. By the time he was finished tending to everything he needed to do, it was a little late in the afternoon.

With the hotel room booked and all the presents gathered, everything was set! He also made sure that he was well dressed for this occasion. The last thing he needed to do was pick up the girl.

...

A sigh passes through his lips as he finishes straightening his tie. Mio's gone through so much and he was fully aware that she was suffering. But there wasn't a damn thing he could do to prevent any of this from happening. He closes his eyes and sits down on his bed, covering his face while looking defeated.

He's never felt this powerless before in his life. ]

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[ Having a whole day - twenty four hours was a huge blessing. But being alone in her room, in her own house wasn't exactly a good thing because when she closed her eyes, she'd be haunted by the same nightmares repeatedly, over and over again.

She sighs to herself and shakes her head before grabbing the knife that she hid under her pillow just in case of emergencies.

Swallowing hard, she turns the knife inwards, towards herself before thoughts fill her mind. Ones that she can't refrain from being heard, even if she wanted to.

'I'm a horrible person. I'm scared that I'll become the person that I was before. That I'll hurt other people, the ones I care about, so... before I can do that. It's better this way isn't it? If I kill myself here, there's no chance that I'll betray anybody. So--'

Her fingers are trembling, but she's slowly bringing the knife closer to herself. There's nobody here to stop her. Her room's locked, too; the perfect conditions. She's never really had these thoughts before, so it's a little terrifying.

But she thinks it's for the best.

She shouldn't be alive to begin with. She's supposed to be dead. She knows that too well, now. And yet, Shion Sonozaki is alive, as Mio Sonozaki. Or was she Mion Sonozaki? The lines are blurred, somewhere. But it's unimportant.

Because she just simply has to end it here. Finish things herself. It's the only way. ]

[ Just when he didn't think things could possibly get worst...

As he was in the middle of running his hand through his hair, he completely freezes up on the spot when he hears something truly terrifying.

Hearing that she thinks of herself as a horrible person was already heartbreaking, but what really had him distraught was the notion that she was planning on killing herself.

'It's better this way isn't it? If I kill myself here, there's no chance that I'll betray anybody.' No...!! Those words shook him to his core.

He couldn't let that happen.

If she died, he wouldn't be able to live with himself. There are so many people that love her, himself included. She was a ray of sunshine in his dull life. If she was gone... what would be the point of anything?! He could already feel the tears welling up in his eyes.

Without any sort of hesitation, he bolts out of his room, slamming and locking the door behind him as he exits the house. His hands were trembling as he pulled out his cellphone, dialing her number just before stepping inside of his car.

It's a desperate plea, but she should be able to hear these thoughts frantically race through his mind. 'Pick up. Pick up. Pick up. Pick up the phone!!! Oh god. Mio... please pick up...!!' ]

[ The sudden invasion of thoughts are what makes her drop the knife in her hands; she definitely didn't expect that, but it's enough for her to grab the phone that's sitting on the table, buzzing there. She already knows who it is.

And she finally answers the phone with shaky, trembling hands.

She manages to put it towards her ear, she doesn't even bother putting on a cheery voice. By how frantic his thoughts are, she's certain he already knows. So her reply just sounds tired. ]

... hey.

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[ When she picks up, he's both relieved and terrified. Thank god. He wants to hope that his frantic thoughts were able to reach her and cause her to pick up the phone. His own voice was shaky, it's hard for him to hold onto the phone with his trembling hands. ]

WHERE ARE YOU?!

[ He's not even sure where exactly she's at but his best guess is that she's at her home. There's no time to waste and thus, he immediately pulls out of the driveway, not even bothering to wait on a response. If she was somewhere else, he'll just turn another direction! He wasn't going to sit in his car and wait. ]

Mio!! Whatever it is you are thinking about, don't do it! If you die... [ His voice is becoming more frantic at he yells into the phone, he couldn't care less if people could hear him. His voice is even more distraught because he's both crying and yelling into the phone. Mio is the first and only person to see him in such a vulnerable state but even with that, he didn't care. ] my life will be meaningless without you!!!

[ Mio had claimed the biggest piece of his heart and he wouldn't be able to live without her. ]

[ He's loud and he's yelling and she almost drops the phone because of that. She can tell that he really cares about her but what makes her freeze up are those words of his, enough to make tears start at the edges of her eyes.

And it's only then when she starts laughing, in a way that seems almost manic.

But she at least answers his question, just a little timidly. ]

I'm... at home, in my room. Sorry, I worried you, didn't I? I promise. I won't. I...

[ 'Nobody's ever said that to me before.' ]

I want to see you.

[ Even through his yelling, he falls silent when he hears her almost manic sounding laugh. He's reminded of her laugh during their conversation shortly after their second objective. Between remembering that moment and this incident, his blood runs cold. It's strange, that laugh was almost chilling. When he hears her timid response, he's able to shake it off and focus on Mio.

It hurt to hear such a cruel thought. This is why he wanted to pour out all of his love for her, to give her all the warmth that she deserved. ]

Then I'm happy to be the first one to tell you that. I love you Mio and I would be lost without you.

[ His voice is still cracking due to his tears but he's at least able to calm down at her promise. ]

I'm so desperate to see you, Mio. Please... please don't do anything drastic. I'll be there in a few minutes.

[ Soon enough, he's pulling into her drive way and immediately bolts out of his car. He quickly makes his way to her door is pressing the doorbell, while still holding onto his cellphone in one hand. ]

I'm here. Please open the door.

[ Honestly, he shouldn't be talking into the phone and drive but that doesn't matter right now. She likes that he's pleased and she likes hearing that he loves her, that he wants to see her. Anyway, she picks up the knife on the floor and goes right on ahead to hide it under her pillow.

She wipes her eyes with her arm before she unlocks the door and immediately speedwalks her way to the front door, not bothering to change.

Which is why he'll find her in pajamas that make it way too obvious that she's not wearing anything underneath, but that probably doesn't matter right now. There's no words as she looks at him and wears what seems to be a pitiful smile. ]

[ When one is worried, they tend to make irational decisions but he didn't care. The only thing that was on his mind was seeing Mio.

He's relieved when she opens the door. If it were any other day, perhaps he would be embarrassed that she was in nothing but her pajamas. That didn't matter to him. Not a single word is said as he immediately pulls her in for a hug that's filled with all of his warmth. His watery eyes made it obvious he's been crying the entire ride here. It's strange. Before recently, Leon could not remember the last time he cried. However, in the short span of just a few days, he's bawled his eyes out twice. Both of them were because of Mio.

Wrapping his arms around her in an attempt to keep her close, he's also showing her that he didn't want to let go. Throughout his choked sobbing, the only thing he was able to say was her name. ]

Mio... M-Mio....

[ There's a lot of emotions he's going through right now but overall, he's so relieved and thankful that she's alive and breathing in front of him. ]

[ She can tell.

Even so, she's surprised by it all, especially that he was actually-- but that didn't change how comforting it is to be in his arms, to hear his voice. Even it's filled with emotions that she wishes she could take away from him. ]

I'm sorry, I'm sorry, Leon... I didn't mean to...

[ And it's right then and there that she returns the hug, wrapping her arms around him herself. ]

I'm okay. See? [ 'Well, it's not entirely true. I'm not okay, really. How can I be? I haven't even told him everything about my memories...' ] I didn't hurt myself.

[ He desired to give her all the comfort she needed. This past month has been extremely rough on her and he wanted to do everything he could to bring her the some sense of ease. ]

Mio...

[ As much as he wants to be relieved, he couldn't. Especially when he heard those thoughts swirling through her mind. She's right. There's no way she could be okay with everything that's happened.

One of his hands softly cups the side of her face, gently pushing some loose strand of hair behind her ears. ]

Please don't lie to me. If you're not okay, I want you to be honest to me.

Ahaha. ☆

[ She laughs, but it's in a way that's not exactly funny. But she soon quiets her voice, just a little, softening her expression. ]

This telepathy is a pain. I can't lie to you. But we probably shouldn't talk out here. Should I go change, or...?

[ 'Although it might be a bad idea to leave me alone, even for a second.' ]

[ It might be a pain for her and in a way, he also hates that she can hear his most unwanted thoughts but at the same time, he is grateful that he can really understand what's going on in her mind. ]

I booked us a hotel room to make up for Valentines Day. We can talk there if you want.

[ He's getting ready to agree to her suggestion but then he's sudenly quiet when he hears the next thing that's on her mind. ]

If you're going to change, I'm coming in with you. [ He doesn't even care that he sounds like a pervert. ] I'm not leaving you alone even for a second, Mio.

[ Her face is even redder now that he's said that he's booked a hotel and her thoughts swap from something that's unnerving to something that's a little more flustered.

'A- A hotel room?! Wait, wait, wait, this is way too fast... what does he plan on doing, he's not going to try that this soon, right? And we're even going back to that hell tomorrow! I mean, I don't mind, it makes me really happy, but my heart isn't ready for something like that!!'

Oh my god. ]

Okay, okay... I mean, I should probably change anyway, it's really cold outside.

[ A finger twirls around a strand of green hair, just a little bit nervous. ]

I need to grab my stuff, but I'm already packed, so I just need to get properly dressed. Thank you for coming, by the way.

[ His own distraught thoughts came to a halt when he listens in on what she's thinking next.

Well, he's still distraught but for a completely different reason. Now he's screaming inside his head. He's completely frantic as he quickly responds to that thought. ]

I-I-I swear that's not my intention!! I simply... want to spend time with you for the day, just the two of us. I-It's hard to do that with your family and Xiaolang.

[ Oh my god is right. He swears that his intentions were pure!!! A small exhale escapes from his lips and he stands up, holding onto her hand in the process. ]

Take your time getting dressed. I have my stuff ready and packed as well so we don't have to go back to my place. [ There's a slight pause in his words as he laces his fingers in-between hers. ] You're welcome, Mio. I couldn't bear it if something happened to you.

[ While still grasping onto her hand, he leans down and gently whispers into her ear in Japanese. ]

You're my everything, Mio. I love you so much.

Ah-

[ Her words pause almost immediately because she's shocked that those thoughts were heard. It makes her heart race and she almost wants to bury herself as he takes her hand, lacing their fingers together. She squeezes his hand tight and smiles rather proudly, pleased but embarrassed. ]

Sorry, sorry... I was just really surprised. I didn't think you'd go as far as to rent a hotel room just for a simple reason like that.

[ She says 'simple' with hints of adoration and affection, but what makes the blush spread from her cheeks to her ears is when he says those few words in her native tongue, causing her expression to become rather dumbstruck. ]

Idiot... [ Mio murmurs those words, soft. Warm. There's clear love in them, too. ] Now you're being an embarrassing romantic. But.

[ If he's going to do that, she only has to repay the favor, doesn't she? So she stays close to him, clearing her throat as she whispers soft words in his ear, in his own native tongue. ]

Even if I had feelings for someone else as 'Shion'... I think we were meant to be together. I don't have words to describe how much I love you. But as long as you stay with me, I'll be happy. I love you. I really do. So please, love me more than anybody else ever could.

[ Despite his embarrassment, he didn't blame her for thinking like that. Taking a significant other is a serious move. Even if her thoughts flustered him, he was glad to bring her happiness. ]

It's... it's fine. It might be simple but I'd do anything for you.

[ His heart is filled with joy upon listening to those heartfelt words. There's so much love poured into them and he wouldn't trade this moment for anything in the world. His own chest was fluttering and this is just another reminder that Mio is the best thing to happen to him. ]

I feel the same. I believe that we were reincarnated so we could meet and be together. You have my word, Mio. My love for you is eternal and not even a thousand words would be able to express it. You're the only one for me and I promise that I will love you more than anyone else. If we are ever reborn again, you will be the the one I love most.

[ While still holding onto her hand, he bends down, bringing his lips to meet with hers for a tender kiss that's filled with all his love. He lets the kiss linger on for a few shorts moments before he breaks away, switching back to English. ]

Come now, go get dressed. You're going to enjoy the hotel room I picked out for us.

"Anything", huh...

[ Her voice is soft, but she can't help that her heart's racing quickly when he's saying those words of his. It's the most embarrassing thing he's ever said, but she can't help but be happy about it. Maybe this is what it's like to be truly happy.

Because she wasn't happy in her last life...

That she made so many mistakes......

This is what she gets in return? She's happy, but at the same time--

'Do I really deserve this?' ]

Alright. Let's go quickly, then. [ Mio squeezes his hand tightly before walking back inside and into her room. ]

[ Leon would do anything and everything for her. All he wanted was to see her happy and he's determined to make sure that this life will be one filled with joy. Her happiness will always be of the utmost priority for him.

So when he hears that thought, he gives her hand another gentle and loving squeeze.

Since it's a thought that he wants her to hear, it's not heard but through this method he hopes that she understands.

'You deserve a happy life, Mio.'

With his hand still holding onto hers, he follows Mio into her room and closes the door behind them. He lets go of her hand so she can change and he quickly turns his back to her but it still doesn't prevent him from blushing. ]

T-Take your time changing....

You're turning your back on me...? What, you don't want to watch? This might be your once in a lifetime chance to, you know.

[ She's joking of course, but she'll easily strip down, the sounds of clothes shuffling as she puts on something nice just for him; it doesn't take too long, though before she calls back to him. ]

I'm done now, so you can look. I have a jacket that I can put over it since it's cold, and I have extra clothes in my backpack, too, just in case.

I-I take pride in being a proper young man, thank you very much!!

[ Despite... that they've talked about being intimate before.

Still, even as he hears the clothes being moved around he's blushing. He claims to be a proper young man but when one has a girlfriend that's as attractive as Mio, the temptation to turn around and watch is real.

Luckily, he's able to hold in that urge and only turns around to look when she tells him too. The sight takes his breath away. She's so beautiful. Mio looks good in anything but he swears that she gets more stunning with each and everything she wears. There's a fond smile on his face as he walks closer to her and strokes the side of her face. ]

You look beautiful, Mio. I'd say you look like a Chinese doll but you're far prettier than any doll.

... thanks.

[ She's blushing hard, primarily out of embarrassment at that compliment, although she doesn't know how to feel, being compared to a doll. ]

Anyway, I'll grab my things. And a jacket. [ Which she'll go ahead and open the closet to grab a matching green jacket along with her backpack full of what she believes she'll need for going back to hell. When she's ready, she'll walk her way towards him grabbing his hand with a smile. ] Let's go?

Yeah, let's head out.

[ Seeing her backpack causes a proud smile to curve on his lips. As always, she never fails to be resourceful. He's proud to have her as his girlfriend. His fingers intertwine with hers and he leads them out of her house and to his car. He opens the passenger door for her and playfully extends his arm towards the seat. ]

Your chariot awaits, miss.

[ When he grabs her hand and leads her to his car; she can't help but feel happy about to enter. But after he says those words she finds herself freezing up. Something manages to slip in for that moment that causes her to think--

'Not now. I don't want to remember something now!'

She spaces out so much that she doesn't even enter just yet or even say a single word. ]

[ Before he could say anything else, he's soon struck by her thoughts. He's immediately sent in panic mode as he stares at her, noticing how quiet she is. He didn't get to hear the memory but judging from her expression, it had to have been something horrible. ]

Mio?!

[ He grabs her shoulders and looks at her with a desperate plea. Why...? Why did she have to remember something now? ]

What's wrong? What are you remembering?!

Can we... not talk about it right now?

[ Her voice shakes slightly as she closes her eyes and shakes her head. There's a part of her that wants to pull him into her arms and hold him close, but she stops herself. ]

Let's go to the hotel first, though. Then... I'll tell you. You don't mind that, do you?

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