Left-Behind Trace [Open]

[standalonehuman]

WHO: Togusa and people!
WHERE: The hospital, oops.
WHEN: January 7th and onwards.
WHAT: Togusa got shot, he's in the hospital, and finally knows how his Other got shot.
WARNINGS: Discussion of violence, medical treatment, and the like.

The news probably didn't take long to reach a lot of people. Togusa got brought to the hospital with a gunshot wound. Togusa's official story is that he got shot stopping an opportunistic mugger trying to steal things in the chaos of the fire. So what actually happened?

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[standalonehuman]

Togusa's eyes glaze over slightly, staring at nothing until he points at Malik. "Janet's been mentioned recently enough, I think she's fine. That leaked video when Retrospec couldn't find us. Jim's still around, too, just not allowed to talk to us."

Togusa blinks and focuses again, looking at Malik fully. "And it's not quite hostage. Or, it's a voluntary hostage situation. Every time I've really looked at Retrospec's situation? They're scared. They are scared of something so hard that they did this to themselves, locked themselves up to protect themselves."

"There's also the problem of asking Joanne, 'hey, do you want to help put your own family in jail?' Don't think she'd go for it. Which is why I think Retrospec keeps recruiting from in-family." The cult analogy seems to strengthen, in Togusa's mind.

[godcards]

"That's not how it works."

Malik can feel himself on edge, his chest tightening. If Togusa had gotten a memory, or had just zoned out due to the current state he's in, Malik missed it, because he's zeroing in on his own memories.

"There's no recruitment, they were probably born into the cult. It's easier to condition people that way. It's also why they're restricted from interacting with others or going outside... Because going outside breaks the illusion that they need to stay, that they're part of the hierarchy and that their exploitation is necessary for the greater good. Retribution isn't worth taking the risk of trying to escape and them finding you. Unless they can dismantle the entire system, they'll never be free."

His gaze on Togusa is dark and cold. "It's a mistake to assume that everyone would put their family first over their own well being. Just because you're related doesn't mean they love you or that you love them back. You can't really know what their family is like. Survival comes first."

He also might be projecting a bit... or a lot.

[standalonehuman]

Togusa has no idea what it was he said, but he feels and sees that shift in Malik, and he is trying to replay what he just said to search for where he fucked up. Malik, unwanted by his own family, of course he has no family ties. Don't bring it up again, it's just resentment coming off of him, right?

..Right?

Togusa very slowly nods. "I. I know. And I actually agree. I don't know if they'd really help us, even thought they are in a terrible situation. But after, once they're out of their control? I think they'd thank us."

He holds Malik's eye, he won't flinch from the truth that Malik is trying to tell him, the words between the words. "It shouldn't be that way, that family would use or discard people. But there are times where it is true. And we can't wish it away."

[godcards]

Malik is quiet, glaring, like he's silently challenging Togusa despite the other man's agreement.

"What's happened has happened. In the past... In memories... whatever. My point still stands. The only thing you have going for your little theory is that some of the members of Retrospec seem to be too timid to act out in an unpleasant way. I'm not saying they won't help, but conditioning is a powerful thing... especially if they've been led to believe in a way of life that is inherently terrifying for them. You don't know who's at the top and pulling the strings, either... You don't know what kind of power they have."

There's definitely some resentment. Further down, it's rage at how powerless he is to do anything across either of his two lives. However, like always, he refuses to confront his memories or really deal with them in a meaningful way. He just wants to dwell at how unfair everything is. Same shit, different day.

[standalonehuman]

If it was literally anyone other than Malik sitting across from him, Togusa would be trying to find a bright side. But that glare, the way Malik is going back to carefully crafting his words, Togusa knows he has crept up on a nerve. And so any assurances that Togusa can't back up right now are going to only make him angry.

"So far I've been coming at this assuming that there is some truth to it. That the Retrospec leadership knows some truth that we can't see yet, and that their hiding away would seem justified if we could find that truth."

"If it's just a lie, just a ploy to keep control of the people they have? Then what do we do? Take them out, either way, I've never wavered on that idea. They need to be stopped. But does it change our focus if it turns out they're lying to their own people?"

[godcards]

"They are lying. Whatever it is they do or don't know, the less information they give to the lower members, the easier it is to keep them in line."

Malik is trying to reign in his temper - after all, Togusa doesn't know quite everything, and unleashing his emotions would give him a platform to ask. Either that or he'll be escorted out by security, and that would just be embarrassing.

"It might be lying by omission, or maybe they're really that misguided and thinking that they're doing some good. But their version of the truth is going to be twisted in some way. Or else it wouldn't be a cult, and they would let people leave. There's a reason they aren't... and if it was really a noble cause, they wouldn't need to be so isolated. You're trying too hard to justify their actions. There's going to be people who don't see the problem with the hierarchy they've set up... Some people like to feel useful, but that doesn't change the power imbalance from the leader downwards. It doesn't change the fact that the whole system is rotten."