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can a slave do this? *dies and goes back in time* ([personal profile] usurpers) wrote in [community profile] recolle2018-04-20 09:43 pm

I’M DEAD, I’M DEAD ( semi-closed )

WHO: eren jaeger and cr!
WHERE: around recollé.
WHEN: last half of april!
WHAT: expiration dates sUCk
WARNINGS: eren in moody flavor, aot spoilers if those . . . count these days

HAVE YOU HEARD EXODUS WOUNDS (bc wow)
[ it had been a fairly quiet month compared to the rest, if only a little more focused on the future of his more normal life behind the scenes. at one point, eren had wondered if he should be bracing for something to be so . . . quiet.

or maybe he would’ve been better off not jinxing himself. one night and a vivid dream later, eren awakens without shock, without fright, slipping out of drowsiness and into tranquil consciousness. it would’ve been another pretty good day to look forward to, had he not thought back on the dream— the memory— and still found himself dazed.

he goes about his usual routines, fairly normal if not just a bit thoughtful and quiet. there’s still a part of him that feels like he simply had a dream. it doesn’t hit him immediately, but the same words and scene are the ones he keeps thinking back to. in his cell with armin, mikasa in another, taking notes and writing about the memories he got from the owl that confirm other notes they found. titan powers had more slopes and turns than they ever thought, and it falls down to one single, important fact:

i have eight years left . . . or even less. he said that when he was younger. how old was he, fifteen? sixteen?

how old was he now?

the more the words rang in his head, the faster and more silent eren had become as the days stretch. his usual passionate spark in everything he does is dulled, his features always closed off and terse, and only gradually becoming more disconcerted. his usual patience is cut thin, and anyone who knew better would think twice about approaching a man with the palpable energy he walked with: detected, disturbed and angry.

he avoids people, with reason, only really going out because he had to, found briefly in places like:

— the woods, probably as a giant.
— fort mccoy.
— fast walking downtown with his german shepherd, titan.
— sitting in the sand by the beach at night to brood by the tides at an ungodly hour.
— locked up in his apartment.

those who visit the apartment might have more luck in keeping him still enough to talk than the others, but it might not be so easy still. ]


OR CARLY RAE JEPSEN
[ alternatively, you can very well not find eren and take notice that he’s become scarce, both in seeing him around and in his usual text to check in.

he probably won’t ignore you outright, but his texts aren’t read if you send him something. at least not without a huge delay. after said extension of silence, you’ll probably get in response: ]


yeah?

[ acting completely natural, like, hey, what’s good. ]
fiddlestick: (MAXIMUM SAD PUPPY EYES)

[personal profile] fiddlestick 2018-04-21 04:17 pm (UTC)(link)
[ Elliot noticed the sudden distance, but he hadn't dwelled too much on it. It was a busy time of year, between finals and all the antics going on through the town- understandable, if they didn't see each other as much. Not to mention....he had his own weights to deal with. His took the form of letters and packages rather than memories.

Derek had helped him bring the mountain of mail to his garage. A blessing it turned out out, as it gave him plenty of privacy as he went through them. He tried to open them in chronological order, hoping to care care of anything perishable in the oldest ones. The oldest packages were care packages, from both sides of his family. Food that had grown rotten and had to be thrown, but plenty of things that could be salvaged. The oldest letters were normal sounding, he felt pangs of guilt when he read their hopes of seeing him during the holidays.

The holidays themselves brought their own mound of packages. Christmas and Hanukkah gifts and cards from friends and family alike. There was clear disappointment that he wasn't back home, but there was still a forced positive tone in the messages. The holidays were a time of cheer and good will, after all.

But the stuff that was postmarked after the holidays...that's when things took a turn. The letters from friends stopped first. His lack of response must've made them conclude this was the growing apart that happens after high school. None of them had been extremely close anyway. The Fairweathers kept writing and sending packages, but there was worry and upset in their letters. They kept insisting that he write back, that he check on Natalia and Zack - as they had them worried too.

The Craigs on the other hand....

In their letters, worry and upset first turned to fear. But once that passed? It turned to anger. There weren't any Craig care packages, and the letters through February and March were full of accusations to his character and threats to get him to contact them as they took his silence personally. Their relationship had always been a rocky one, so the silence was ripe to draw the worst conclusions from. He read through each one, feeling like each sentence like a strike across his skin.

But once the anger phase passed? Came the worst of it all.

In late March, the Craigs sent several boxes - full of stuff he left behind in New York. Along with it, a single detached sounding letter that made Elliot's legs give out, right there in the garage. There he stayed, staring at nothing in shock, for the longest time. It took a good thirty minutes for him to think to text Eren, to reach out to someone- even if it was a simple "Are you there?". And then when it took Eren so long to respond....his anxieties starting having a field day in his mind over why it could be.

When Eren finally responds, if he's paying attention to his phone? He'll see Elliot's typing for a good ten minutes before he sends out a message way too short to have taken that long to write:]


Are you busy? I'm sorry. I don't want to bother you.
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[personal profile] activatingcombatmode 2018-04-21 04:57 pm (UTC)(link)
[Zack heard of the issues Eren had with Elliot and Natalia a few months back. He knows about this Titan business even though he hasn't seen it for himself before. He can still remember the strange memory he saw while on that train cart with Eren that left him feeling odd. And because he hasn't seen Eren much lately since all of that when he spots the kid at Fort McCoy on a regular visit he stops to glance at him a frown.

... Eren looks exhausted. Or is it something else?

He comes over and claps a hand on his shoulder.]


Hey.
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[personal profile] angealwings 2018-04-21 05:13 pm (UTC)(link)
[ The problem with ungodly hours is that, well, Andrew works nights. So when he's not taken his car, he's out and about at night, and it's not difficult to recognize the figure staring out at the water.

So there Andrew is, jogging up to Eren and standing ... where Eren can see him while still looking forward, but not obscuring the view.
]

You're up early. Or is it late?
servileness: (0.06 sec)

vanessa carlton

[personal profile] servileness 2018-04-21 11:04 pm (UTC)(link)
[ Magatus took its toll out of Clover earlier this month. She's better and worse for it. She wants to hide in her room for the rest off the month but knows she can't. She's made her promises, some she'll do her best to keep, some she'll likely break.

It's in town that she almost misses Eren walking Titan. She does a double take because she doesn't think she's seen Eren this angry before and almost doesn't think it's him. ]


Eren? [ That's too soft and too herself. ] Eren!

[ She jogs to catch up to him. ]
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[personal profile] fiddlestick 2018-04-22 05:24 pm (UTC)(link)
[ Luckily for Eren, he hasn't been in contact with Zack very recently. At least not in the last couple days. Even now, he was scared to reach out to his cousins at the moment. How was he going to tell them? What would they say? What if they tried to get involved?

Either way, he's unaware of what this something at Eren's work could be. There's a delay in his response, his anxieties were telling him not to bother anyone, but ... ]


Sorry. I wasn't accusing you.
I just finished sorting through all the mail from my family.


[He's in full timid apologetic mode. He hasn't spoken to Eren like this in a long time, not unless something was really wrong.]

My aunt and uncle disowned me.
Edited 2018-04-22 17:24 (UTC)
fiddlestick: (MAXIMUM SAD PUPPY EYES)

[personal profile] fiddlestick 2018-04-23 01:10 am (UTC)(link)
[ I can't believe Rean's getting dragged when he's not even in the game. ]

They don't seem to know that communication outside the city's been cut off. So they think I've been intentionally ignoring them their calls and letters all this time, and blew off coming home during winter and spring break.

So they said "if you aren't going to act like you're part of this family, then you're not part of it". Then they said they'll keep paying for my college because they made a promise and "a real Craig keeps their promises", but don't expect anything else out of them.

They even mailed my stuff that I left back home.
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spice girls

[personal profile] servileness 2018-04-23 05:48 am (UTC)(link)
[ because STOP, Eren, don't cut yourself on that edge. Titan deserves better than this.

Clover's concern is both for how uneasy Titan seems and the sheer amount of rage that Eren is emanating. She doesn't want to touch him and have him try to knock her away by sheer automatic emotional reflex, so her solution is this: she sprints to cut in front of him and block his path.

If he moves to the side, so will she until he looks up to see her. She'll walk backwards into anybody for this. ]
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[personal profile] fiddlestick 2018-04-23 11:58 am (UTC)(link)
I know, but I need a WAY to talk to them.
Communication's still cut off.


[he had contacted Zee back when he found one of the angry letters, and Zee seemed like he wanted to help...but who knows how effective that'll be.

This response comes much quicker than the others had:]


Yes please.
angealwings: (Sideways)

[personal profile] angealwings 2018-04-23 04:25 pm (UTC)(link)
[ Well, this is... definitely a chilling difference from how Eren usually is. Andrew frowns. ]

So it is.

[ Softly.

Then he steps closer and sits beside the younger man. No questions, no commentary, no platitudes. Just sits there with him. It might help, it might not. It might make Eren stand up and leave, or simply move away.

But as Andrew doesn't know what the problem is, and it's clear that there is a problem, well. He's not one for shooting in the dark if there were other options.
]
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[personal profile] fiddlestick 2018-04-23 11:08 pm (UTC)(link)
["When you get here"? While it's not rude, that message is the first tip-off that Elliot picks up on that something's off on Eren's end. Eren always picks him up, often he's already on his way. The only times he didn't was by Elliot's own choice. In fact he'd been expecting a text along the lines of him on his way, so to get otherwise one of the few times he clearly wanted to be doted on...]

What's wrong?
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[personal profile] smothershadow 2018-04-23 11:17 pm (UTC)(link)
[After the first few times, Amelia had stopped minding wandering into the woods this far, even when the spring rain had a tendency to turn the paths muddy. Her dress was more sensible, but still a dress.

She was out here first for once, busy examining a flower. When she heard footsteps, the older woman turned to see who it was--to either glare at a hiker for choosing a very poor venue for a campsite, or to greet Eren. No one else she knew should be visiting this area right now. But instead Amelia frowned slightly, lips pulling into a thinner line.

Something wasn't quite...right about his posture. Raising a son who sometimes hid things from her made such things easier to spot. It was like Eren was carrying something heavy on his shoulders, not like how he usually was at all.
]

Hello, Eren. Is something the matter?
fiddlestick: (MAXIMUM SAD PUPPY EYES)

[personal profile] fiddlestick 2018-04-24 12:08 am (UTC)(link)
[Uh. Well, that will work...for now. But what could it possibly be?]

Oh...okay.

[It's good there's an explanation but...he's disappointed. He's been crying for a good while now, and the idea of dealing with an uber driver or Eren's doormen while he's like this just gave him another twist of anxiety. But if Eren can't leave, he can't do much about that...]

I guess I'll see you soon...
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[personal profile] activatingcombatmode 2018-04-24 12:32 am (UTC)(link)
[Zack almost takes his hand back, giving Eren a slightly confused look at that returned "greeting" because it's not abnormal for Zack to be here after all. It's when he takes a second to really see that look in Eren's eyes that the concern settles like a rock in his stomach. So he keeps his hand there and gives it a slight squeeze and shakes before he answers,]

Guess I could ask you the same thing.

[His tone isn't that usual banter bite he has when usually talking to Eren. It's concerned, even and genuinely curious.]

Haven't seen you around much lately.
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[personal profile] fiddlestick 2018-04-24 01:19 am (UTC)(link)
[Elliot sees that message, and there's a moment of typing...before it just stops. He possibly burst into tears again.

Normally with uber, it takes about fifteen to twenty minutes to get to Eren's place from Elliot's. This time? It takes over an hour for Elliot to finally reach Eren's apartment. It took a long time to get himself off that garage floor, as well as work up the nerve to call an uber.

His anxiety was on full force thanks to his family. Tasks done without much thought to most people suddenly felt like moving mountains.

While Eren's outside, if he's paying attention, he might notice the same uber car circle the block a couple times, as Elliot fails to communicate where's a good place to drop him off between his nervous stuttering and his choked up voice. Finally, they managed to work it out and the car pulls up to the curb. Elliot gets out of the car, and immediately turns back to start apologizing to the driver.]


I- I'm s-so sorry...Th-Thanks again- [the driver waves him off and shuts the door, driving away. Elliot takes a step back from the curb before he gets hurt, his hand rubbing his eyes and his breathing a little erratic for just a car ride. Overall, it's clear he's an upset and nervous wreck - he's either on the verge of another crying fit or an anxiety attack or both. He didn't pack a bag either, the idea of running into his roommates or Nanashi like this was too much.

He doesn't even notice Eren right away, he's too busy just trying to collect himself.

Clearly Eren's doing great at this. ]
Edited 2018-04-24 01:45 (UTC)

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