[ In his mind, he is holding his hands out open in defeat. Kei realizes that he should not have attempted to liven the mood. Yet he still feels a warm smile on his lips which is only increasing the amount of guilt that he is feeling. The smile continues to feel real which will make it seem like he is giving sympathy rather than enjoying himself.
"Oh, I can hide things from Sakura." He paraphrases what May had told him and immediately rolls his eyes, looking up at the ceiling. Yet, his smile slips as he realizes that Sakura is feeling like putting herself into two uncomfortable situations. One with Oda, and one with May.
Guilt churns in his stomach as he brings his gaze down and steps forward: ]
Sakura, you should be upset. I do not mean upset as in the troubled worried feelings you are having, but upset as in angry. This is your party, is it not? You should be drowning in happiness and dizzy with the delight of friends. This is not... this is not fair to you. [ His head lightly shakes. ]
This is your party, even if you are sharing it. But it is yours. [ He attempts to give as much control as he can to Sakura. Because this isn't fair, and so, while I could make the situation easy on May, I see no reason why I should help her when she refuses to help herself. ]
Sakura, you can be angry at how unfair you are being treated by others. I know I spoke of understanding and compromise... but I realized just now that you're the most wounded party of everyone. Something I do not think you even realized. [ So he rewords it: ] The issue with Oda and myself is an issue between us... we had no right to drag you into it yet our mutual dislike caused us to do so. And on a day meant for you.
So, I take it back. You need not even absolve me of the trouble I have caused. I am more than happy about being kicked out for causing trouble for one of your guests, for example. I certainly wouldn't blame you. I wouldn't even blame you if you wanted to yell at me for it. [ A pause. ] This is your day, and so you should choose how to spend it. And did you not want to spend it happily?
[ He keeps repeating key phrases so that she understands her level of choice and control in the situation. He takes a step back as soon as he finishes, feeling like he has done something. Uncertain yet if it is good or bad. ]
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"Oh, I can hide things from Sakura." He paraphrases what May had told him and immediately rolls his eyes, looking up at the ceiling. Yet, his smile slips as he realizes that Sakura is feeling like putting herself into two uncomfortable situations. One with Oda, and one with May.
Guilt churns in his stomach as he brings his gaze down and steps forward: ]
Sakura, you should be upset. I do not mean upset as in the troubled worried feelings you are having, but upset as in angry. This is your party, is it not? You should be drowning in happiness and dizzy with the delight of friends. This is not... this is not fair to you. [ His head lightly shakes. ]
This is your party, even if you are sharing it. But it is yours. [ He attempts to give as much control as he can to Sakura. Because this isn't fair, and so, while I could make the situation easy on May, I see no reason why I should help her when she refuses to help herself. ]
Sakura, you can be angry at how unfair you are being treated by others. I know I spoke of understanding and compromise... but I realized just now that you're the most wounded party of everyone. Something I do not think you even realized. [ So he rewords it: ] The issue with Oda and myself is an issue between us... we had no right to drag you into it yet our mutual dislike caused us to do so. And on a day meant for you.
So, I take it back. You need not even absolve me of the trouble I have caused. I am more than happy about being kicked out for causing trouble for one of your guests, for example. I certainly wouldn't blame you. I wouldn't even blame you if you wanted to yell at me for it. [ A pause. ] This is your day, and so you should choose how to spend it. And did you not want to spend it happily?
[ He keeps repeating key phrases so that she understands her level of choice and control in the situation. He takes a step back as soon as he finishes, feeling like he has done something. Uncertain yet if it is good or bad. ]