I didn't have control over much in my life back then. I did what I was told, largely; wherever I was sent, I'd go. Everything was according to the will of someone else, if that old man was to be believed.
But fighting was something that was my own. It was about my power, not anyone else's, and it was something I did because I chose to. If the outcome was unpredictable, then all the better.
[...Is it weird, talking about it like this? He suspects that it might be strange, but it isn't anything he particularly sees a need to stop doing, either. He's...kind of had a long time to think about all of this, after all, and he likes the understanding that comes with it; if there's any bleedover happening, then he doesn't seem terribly aware of it, at least not in the way he's discussing it.]
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I didn't have control over much in my life back then. I did what I was told, largely; wherever I was sent, I'd go. Everything was according to the will of someone else, if that old man was to be believed.
But fighting was something that was my own. It was about my power, not anyone else's, and it was something I did because I chose to. If the outcome was unpredictable, then all the better.
[...Is it weird, talking about it like this? He suspects that it might be strange, but it isn't anything he particularly sees a need to stop doing, either. He's...kind of had a long time to think about all of this, after all, and he likes the understanding that comes with it; if there's any bleedover happening, then he doesn't seem terribly aware of it, at least not in the way he's discussing it.]