[It's a good thing Zoro can't see the face Cutter is making when it becomes clear that his charade has been seen through. What comes next makes a cold, disgusting sensation curl through him like writhing tentacles that thresh his sense of self-worth or like worms that gnaw through his insides and pull anything they touch painfully together.
'Shit! I messed up!'
It's less of a thought and more of a certainty, that he has been an annoyance with pushing his ideals on others and troubling Zoro with worries the man never asked to have them shared with him. It's just rational that he'd run away. After all, Cutter wouldn't want to deal with something like that from somebody who is basically a stranger either, right? God, he's such a goddamned pathetic fool! What was he even thinking being cheesy and chasing some sort of bond with a guy several years older just because they happen to like some of the same things? Zoro has surely better things to waste his time on that him! So stupid-!]
Y-yeah... Once I'm ready.
[He knows that he isn't going to call to let Zoro know he's better, even if he will recover like he always does. He doesn't want to be a bother and after this shameful display giving Zoro an easy way out of their relationship is the least thing he can do.
He takes a deep breath and forces himself not to let his emotions get the better of him. This is silly, it's probably just a small misunderstanding, why is he such a crybaby taking things that personal he doesn't even what to be that way himself? Still, it stings. His voice cracks as he way too late answers the goodbye wave and tries to keep the hot tears in his eyes from falling. Tomorrow Cutter will be fine again. Today it just aches.]
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'Shit! I messed up!'
It's less of a thought and more of a certainty, that he has been an annoyance with pushing his ideals on others and troubling Zoro with worries the man never asked to have them shared with him. It's just rational that he'd run away. After all, Cutter wouldn't want to deal with something like that from somebody who is basically a stranger either, right? God, he's such a goddamned pathetic fool! What was he even thinking being cheesy and chasing some sort of bond with a guy several years older just because they happen to like some of the same things? Zoro has surely better things to waste his time on that him! So stupid-!]
Y-yeah... Once I'm ready.
[He knows that he isn't going to call to let Zoro know he's better, even if he will recover like he always does. He doesn't want to be a bother and after this shameful display giving Zoro an easy way out of their relationship is the least thing he can do.
He takes a deep breath and forces himself not to let his emotions get the better of him. This is silly, it's probably just a small misunderstanding, why is he such a crybaby taking things that personal he doesn't even what to be that way himself? Still, it stings. His voice cracks as he way too late answers the goodbye wave and tries to keep the hot tears in his eyes from falling. Tomorrow Cutter will be fine again. Today it just aches.]
...guess even in that I'm just another one, huh.