[Lina hasn't noticed, or if she has, she doesn't care. it isn't getting through. Clover was right; they're monstrous, all of them. that's what she feels right now. empty, devoid of emotions that she's pent up for nearly a year, and utterly inhuman. shaped like one but blank inside.]
[is she in shock? does she know what shock is like? is she going to break down? she doesn't know yet. the laughter finally, finally subsides as her fists involuntarily stay at her sides. panic is setting in; her brain is starting to process the fire around her, how desperately she needs to escape, how badly she has to not be here. the full panic attack hasn't set in yet and she hasn't realized she's crying yet, but it's. fine. she's fine. she'll be okay. she got everything out. she'll be fine. it'll be fine now.]
[because she wasn't... this wasn't her losing control. this was her making the choice to tear everything apart. he's right. she reacted monstrously. she reacted like the inhuman creature she is. but she chose to do this. and as that realization sinks in, or as it will over the coming days, she will be okay.]
[but right now, she needs to not be here. her muscles are tense and it's very, very difficult for her to actually move. or speak.]
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[is she in shock? does she know what shock is like? is she going to break down? she doesn't know yet. the laughter finally, finally subsides as her fists involuntarily stay at her sides. panic is setting in; her brain is starting to process the fire around her, how desperately she needs to escape, how badly she has to not be here. the full panic attack hasn't set in yet and she hasn't realized she's crying yet, but it's. fine. she's fine. she'll be okay. she got everything out. she'll be fine. it'll be fine now.]
[because she wasn't... this wasn't her losing control. this was her making the choice to tear everything apart. he's right. she reacted monstrously. she reacted like the inhuman creature she is. but she chose to do this. and as that realization sinks in, or as it will over the coming days, she will be okay.]
[but right now, she needs to not be here. her muscles are tense and it's very, very difficult for her to actually move. or speak.]