I don't - it's going to kill everyone, there's no way it isn't, you can see it, and I can't... I can't let that happen, everyone is going to die and I want that but it's not...acceptable, it's not good, and...

[He shakes his head again; his words are quiet but they're rapid and somewhere in there he's vaguely aware that they aren't making sense, but...]

I can't get away from this - no matter what happens or how many times I die, I can't get away from this, it's always going to be there and trying to make me into something that I don't get a say in, and maybe this time if it kills me it'll fix everything, maybe I can actually get away from it this time.

[It's not something he would have put into words like that in any other situation, but...god, that's what he wants, isn't it. Maybe if he dies here, this will be over - there's no other way, is there? This is always going to be what happens, he can't escape from it otherwise.

Somewhere in there, he knows it's the paranoia getting to him - he shouldn't say things like this in front of Jaeger, it's just going to upset him, he's not even sure how true it is that he wants this - but for now, it's all he has.]