And now Togusa has to explain himself. He makes an uncertain sound and his hand automatically goes to the back of his head. His speech is just as hesitant as James' right now, just as unwilling to admit to some things. "I've, never been that angry in my life. Even more than when you lost your arm."

"No convenient Retrospec people around to point the finger at, so," his arms limply raise in a shrug. "I took it out on whoever I could blame. Not at all saying my suspension is undeserved. Just that it's where I am right now."

"I agree that you shouldn't go back," Togusa shakes his head. "I don't want you to." Understatement. He's desperate for James to not vanish again. "I understand where your head was at, and the need to do something to make it up. To try to do it the right way. I can't truly fault you for that."