It is. The way you reacted when I threw the bottle at you - that was memory and instinct. You can't fake that.

I can't offer you a way to come to peace with what you have now. But, and I'm saying this as a Retrospec user, not a doctor, it might help if you look into making time for activities that would allow you to work with these new abilities. Some sort of exercise regimen, so you can become more comfortable with them instead of being frightened by their existence.