I'm well aware of what it's like to be alone, you know. To truly have no one to rely on but yourself, to have no one that can possibly understand, and to have no one that you can trust to not destroy you at their nearest possible convenience. I won't say I was lonely then; I won't even say I disliked it all that much. It was simply the way things were, and if I had to I fully believe I could go back to living that way again. It's part of who I was, and as such it's part of who I am now.
But while I do acknowledge that he may hurt me - that he may turn out to be the sort that will destroy me one day - the fact of the matter is that I trust him not to. If that trust is ill-founded, then that's my mistake, and I'll pay for it when the time comes... But for now, I'm willing to place a bet on the notion that it won't happen, or if it does, it's something that we'll be able to reconcile.
It would be easier to leave, and to live out the rest of my life alone. But I don't want to do that.
[He pauses for a moment.]
If I pass you something for a moment, can I ask you to do nothing to harm it? You don't have to do anything with it, simply don't destroy it.
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I'm well aware of what it's like to be alone, you know. To truly have no one to rely on but yourself, to have no one that can possibly understand, and to have no one that you can trust to not destroy you at their nearest possible convenience. I won't say I was lonely then; I won't even say I disliked it all that much. It was simply the way things were, and if I had to I fully believe I could go back to living that way again. It's part of who I was, and as such it's part of who I am now.
But while I do acknowledge that he may hurt me - that he may turn out to be the sort that will destroy me one day - the fact of the matter is that I trust him not to. If that trust is ill-founded, then that's my mistake, and I'll pay for it when the time comes... But for now, I'm willing to place a bet on the notion that it won't happen, or if it does, it's something that we'll be able to reconcile.
It would be easier to leave, and to live out the rest of my life alone. But I don't want to do that.
[He pauses for a moment.]
If I pass you something for a moment, can I ask you to do nothing to harm it? You don't have to do anything with it, simply don't destroy it.