"I've tried to change. So many times. But the tragedy just repeats itself, no matter how I try to stop it. It's kind of like a never ending loop. And as for friends? So many of them don't know who the real Mio is.
Well... there is one person that I could consider close a true friend. I don't know her too much. He knows her better, probably. But even so, she forgave me for my sin. Even though she didn't have to. And she honestly shouldn't have. Just like Xiaolang will never forgive me. Ever.
And to be honest, I don't think I can ever forgive myself. Even if I changed... I can't step away from my sins. That's just simply running away from it all. I don't want to run away. I want to face it head on. But I'm not strong at all. I'm weak. I'm reliant on people. But my reliance caused my mistake to happen once again. If it never happened, maybe I would have been able to live with Leon after graduation. We'd go to the same school together, he'd become the heir of his company and I'd find my true calling.
But I can't have that life. I'm not allowed to be happy. I never was. I was just simply born to be discarded, after all."
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Well... there is one person that I could consider close a true friend. I don't know her too much. He knows her better, probably. But even so, she forgave me for my sin. Even though she didn't have to. And she honestly shouldn't have. Just like Xiaolang will never forgive me. Ever.
And to be honest, I don't think I can ever forgive myself. Even if I changed... I can't step away from my sins. That's just simply running away from it all. I don't want to run away. I want to face it head on. But I'm not strong at all. I'm weak. I'm reliant on people. But my reliance caused my mistake to happen once again. If it never happened, maybe I would have been able to live with Leon after graduation. We'd go to the same school together, he'd become the heir of his company and I'd find my true calling.
But I can't have that life. I'm not allowed to be happy. I never was. I was just simply born to be discarded, after all."