If I’m going to get hurt, I’m going to get hurt no matter what... And I think it would be better if I knew so we could handle it together.
[ It’s the truth. He doesn’t see how not knowing would keep him safe? Wouldn’t being close to Goro put him in any kind of danger? This stress and fear that holds his boyfriend is practically sneering at him, so he’s frustrated. He wants to be there for his boyfriend, to be by his side when everything weighs down on them, but instead he’s in this cage covered by a veil. Anger wells, but he placates it by nuzzling the crown of his head, leaving more kisses like it’ll dispel all the agitation and distress away.
Ren has already lived most of his life fabricating lies for his own family, denying others the chance to help him or let him rely on them. Only recently has he understood how all of those people felt, helpless and lost. His life is now out there for everyone to see, but his feelings and thoughts have only been splayed out for those close to him. As much as he can argue that he has put a lot on the line for this relationship, he’s preoccupied with the unsettling fact that Goro may be connected to a darker figures and history than his own. How do you help and protect someone when you don’t know what you’re fighting?
Carefully, he rolls off of him, but wraps his arms around his waist and snuggles closer. ]
We can talk about this more later. You should rest up.
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[ It’s the truth. He doesn’t see how not knowing would keep him safe? Wouldn’t being close to Goro put him in any kind of danger? This stress and fear that holds his boyfriend is practically sneering at him, so he’s frustrated. He wants to be there for his boyfriend, to be by his side when everything weighs down on them, but instead he’s in this cage covered by a veil. Anger wells, but he placates it by nuzzling the crown of his head, leaving more kisses like it’ll dispel all the agitation and distress away.
Ren has already lived most of his life fabricating lies for his own family, denying others the chance to help him or let him rely on them. Only recently has he understood how all of those people felt, helpless and lost. His life is now out there for everyone to see, but his feelings and thoughts have only been splayed out for those close to him. As much as he can argue that he has put a lot on the line for this relationship, he’s preoccupied with the unsettling fact that Goro may be connected to a darker figures and history than his own. How do you help and protect someone when you don’t know what you’re fighting?
Carefully, he rolls off of him, but wraps his arms around his waist and snuggles closer. ]
We can talk about this more later. You should rest up.
[ He reassures him with a squeeze. ]