[Mio finds herself scoffing ever so slightly, laughing once again in spite of herself.]
There's definitely a point. But of course, I know better. I'm not allowed to kill myself again.
["Again", implying there was a first time.] I'm even stopped again...
[She wants to cry again. Because the last time she felt this way, that she didn't deserve to live in the slightest the person who came to her aid was Leon. He was the one who ran towards her when he heard those thoughts of her. What were they again?
Mio remembers it too well.
'I'm a horrible person. I'm scared that I'll become the person that I was before. That I'll hurt other people, the ones I care about, so... before I can do that. It's better this way isn't it? If I kill myself here, there's no chance that I'll betray anybody. So--'
And he called her. He begged her not to do it. That his life would be meaningless without her. But doing this... it's selfish, this time. It's not a selfless act that she can use to protect other people. It's a selfish act so she can forget that anything bad ever happened, kind of like drinking alcohol.]
Then again, I already promised that I wouldn't. I can't punish myself, the demon, that way. [Her tone is so strangely nonchalant and relax that it's almost difficult to tell that she's actually pretty shaken, deep down. Mio's just really good at hiding it.] And why does it matter? Are you going to take it away from me? From this demon that only cares about herself?
[Yeah, she's still going to continue to spit his earlier words right back into his face.]
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[Mio finds herself scoffing ever so slightly, laughing once again in spite of herself.]
There's definitely a point. But of course, I know better. I'm not allowed to kill myself again.
["Again", implying there was a first time.] I'm even stopped again...
[She wants to cry again. Because the last time she felt this way, that she didn't deserve to live in the slightest the person who came to her aid was Leon. He was the one who ran towards her when he heard those thoughts of her. What were they again?
Mio remembers it too well.
'I'm a horrible person. I'm scared that I'll become the person that I was before. That I'll hurt other people, the ones I care about, so... before I can do that. It's better this way isn't it? If I kill myself here, there's no chance that I'll betray anybody. So--'
And he called her. He begged her not to do it. That his life would be meaningless without her. But doing this... it's selfish, this time. It's not a selfless act that she can use to protect other people. It's a selfish act so she can forget that anything bad ever happened, kind of like drinking alcohol.]
Then again, I already promised that I wouldn't. I can't punish myself, the demon, that way. [Her tone is so strangely nonchalant and relax that it's almost difficult to tell that she's actually pretty shaken, deep down. Mio's just really good at hiding it.] And why does it matter? Are you going to take it away from me? From this demon that only cares about herself?
[Yeah, she's still going to continue to spit his earlier words right back into his face.]