You don't think two months after the end of a six year long relationship where I almost asked the woman to marry me is too short? You don't think people will judge? I'm tired of people who don't know me judging me for my actions. I'm tired of the peanut gallery commenting on every aspect of my life.

[Derek sighs.]

Ever since the app I feel like my life has been fucked up. I feel like everything has been going wrong. And then I spend a month camping in the woods, fighting monsters and is it a pain? Yeah. Some teenagers need to chill but my fondest memory of the whole month as talking to her. She listened to me talk about some seriously personal stuff and instead of the normal, "Derek you can't let it get to you," and "It's not your fault Derek," she... she told me I was strong for getting through it, for waking up every day and not letting it destroy me. I haven't been told something like that in a REALLY long time.

[Derek voice lowers.]

I'm scared that if I pursue this, Retrospec is just going to take it away from me.