[We don't even know what I am anymore! Fai wants to scream. What if he's the kind of monster that can't be reasoned with or controlled? What if he loses his head next time and never comes back from it? What if he's not done changing yet?
But... for all that he doesn't want to hurt the kids or Iwai, he doesn't really want to never see them again either. None of this is anything he wants. What he wants is to go home and finish the rest of their night the way they were, snuggled up together in a warm bed. Happy. Not out on the edge of the woods freezing, Iwai bleeding, and the kids all out at this stupid hour of the morning looking for his stupid self.
Very slowly, Fai pushes against the trunk of the tree and levers himself back up to his bare feet. Instead of curling up into a ball on the ground or running away again, he takes two steps around the tree, and then another, so he's just barely visible in the glow of the car's headlights. Still in his pajamas, dirty and disheveled, but... facing this problem, at least for right now.
Maybe... if he can spend a few minutes around Iwai and not... not lose control, there might be some hope...?
(And if he does lose control, maybe Noah's close enough to pull him away before he can do irreparable harm to Iwai.)]
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But... for all that he doesn't want to hurt the kids or Iwai, he doesn't really want to never see them again either. None of this is anything he wants. What he wants is to go home and finish the rest of their night the way they were, snuggled up together in a warm bed. Happy. Not out on the edge of the woods freezing, Iwai bleeding, and the kids all out at this stupid hour of the morning looking for his stupid self.
Very slowly, Fai pushes against the trunk of the tree and levers himself back up to his bare feet. Instead of curling up into a ball on the ground or running away again, he takes two steps around the tree, and then another, so he's just barely visible in the glow of the car's headlights. Still in his pajamas, dirty and disheveled, but... facing this problem, at least for right now.
Maybe... if he can spend a few minutes around Iwai and not... not lose control, there might be some hope...?
(And if he does lose control, maybe Noah's close enough to pull him away before he can do irreparable harm to Iwai.)]